Prepared to embrace the suck…
This past week has been a flurry of activity for me. Work, Puppy, meal preps, laundry, school and sports for Courtney, preparing for Jake’s up and coming High School graduation and oh yeah, this seasons first 70.3 for me in Connecticut, I am a hot mess. I decided to throw caution to the wind, show up and try to finish this race. I’m not sure, but I think my Mom is right. I AM CRAZY.
I am so underprepared for this race, it makes me nervous as hell. I have been having intermittent bouts of mini panic attacks and full on freak outs, which are usually followed by an overwhelming feeling of nausea and “WTF am I doing this for” moments. I decided two weeks ago, I am going show up and prepare to embrace the suck and all this course has to offer me and the other triathletes participating.
I went to my parents house last week after work, plopped myself on the couch like an overly dramatic teenager, kicked my shoes off and put my feet on the edge of the coffee table. I threw my arm up over my head , leaned back and started to watch MASH with my parents. Now, normally this would be the part that my Dad would remind me that the coffee table was not the appropriate place to put my feet and to please remove them. He didn’t. Weird. I could feel his gaze on my right side and slowly looked over at him and smiled, still waiting for the request to remove my feet. “Hi” I said. He reached up, scratched his head and said, “You know, Trace, You don’t have to do this race.” “I do, Dad. I have to do this race.” Dad said: “But why? Why do you do this to yourself, it’s so hard!”
I paused for a brief moment, smiled and said “Because, even though I freak out, I actually love it, Dad! There is a saying in triathlon that if it was easy, everyone would do it.” “I’m going to show up, give it the best I can give it and see what happens. Even if I don’t finish, I still showed up”
“I guess that’s half the battle then…showing up.”
Yes, Dad. Yes it is.
This past week, my Mom has helped me develop my on course nutrition (Almond Brittle, the recipe is in the helpful info links.) I have trained with the Untapped Maple products and the brittle with zero problems and I’m confident it’s just one less thing I have to worry about. I have watched all the videos on YouTube of the course and I’m mentally preparing to work really hard on the hills and not fall off the bike. I have been swimming in my wetsuit in my parents pool, trying to figure out how the hell I can propel myself through the water with only one strong arm. I have been doing my HIIT training and running intervals the best I can. I dropped off my bike at Cycles 54 this week for the pre race tune up and some new gear ( I actually bought more water bottles, GIGGLE.) . (http://cycles54.com) I did all of my food shopping and even finished most of my laundry.
Am I as prepared this year as I was for last year? Absolutely NOT. Do I think I am going to finish? Honestly, I DON’T CARE. I was able to coerce Ladybug and her Friend Ellana to come with me this year as my support crew. Neither have been to a Triathlon before, sprint or otherwise, so what better way to introduce them then to a Half Ironman. So, I purchased them some VIP tickets to give them the full experience. (I just might make a triathlete out of one of my kids) They get to be up close and personal to all the athletes, the food and most importantly: THE FINISH LINE. I am so excited these girls get to experience the pre race electricity and see all these crazy talented athletes cross that finish line. I want them to see for themselves that HARD WORK PAYS OFF.
Today, I pick up my bike after my Medic shift. I go home, pack up my gear and go into decompression mode. My taper blues is in full affect today and it’s making me a bit batty. (I forewarned my Medic partner, Kevin today there will be no Shenanigan’s. FYI. There was nothing BUT Shenanigans today) Tomorrow, we head up to Connecticut for our check in and enjoy the pre race festivities. Saturday, I buckle in and prepare to embrace the suck.
I might have to conference Kelsey today to make sure I have my mental clarity, LOL. (WWKD?) (https://www.kelseyabbott.com)
I will hopefully be able to blog one more time about my pre race adventures before Sunday. Please think good thoughts.
If you would like to track me and the other Triathletes, upload the Ironman Tracker app to your cell phone. My bib number is 2326. My Speed Sherpa Teammate, Jen Delaney is bib 121. (Jen is a legit badass. I can’t wait to see how well she crushes this course.)
Until then, stay safe out there and be good to each other. T